The Up and Down

Ups and Downs

Sometimes you go up other time you go up.

Some days are good, some days are bad, some are amazing and some are horrible. That is the way things are at the moment, in a wild up and down that I haven’t settled myself about. As a result, I have not been able to write. Well more like I haven’t able to get the right words onto paper. A lot of things are going on but I need to get them in order to tell you all.

I have also been editing the main bulk of what I had published with the intention to have it published as an eBook. Going over what I have written has made me realized that I have held back a lot of the emotion and bad experiences that I have been through. I have told you all about the big stuff but I feel like hidden a lot. So I have been looking at what has and is happening and how I plan to approach what I will be writing next.

So be on the lookout for the cover of Diary of a Recovering Idiot soon and know that I have been working on bringing you the best most emotional charged story possible. Between editing, I will be working on getting you a new post soon. There is a lot to update you about so been on the lookout for what’s to come.

New Year, New Plans

New Year New Plans

Aiming for goal in the new year.

It’s a new year and so much potential is right around the corner for us to experience, that the children and I have sat down and started to plan. This year is very important for both of them because they will be doing exams that will move them to another level of their lives.

Kylie has brought up the idea of aiming for a sports scholarship and has urged me to set up a meeting with her coach to see what are her options. We should have probably had this discussion when Kylie was younger, but in truth all of us were just struggling to get through everyday life despite the drama of the divorce that filled our minds. Possibilities for the future weren’t even a passing thought.

The meeting ended up being easy to arrange and we soon found out that due to the fact both Kylie and Shane had been so active on the competition arena for swimming, plus the fact they did so well, put them in the line of sight of recruiters. They had the natural talent, plus good speed but both of them would have to push training to a higher level if they wanted to get scholarships. We talked to the coach and started to plan.

I was in awe by the attitude and seriousness of the children. They took note of the training they needed to undertake, nutrition to keep healthy, plus they started to talk back and forth about school-work and how to keep on top of it all. When the meeting was over we headed home and the children kept on talking and planning and I let them. One thing I have discovered is if you fuel a person’s enthusiasm then anything is possible. I wanted that for my children, endless possibilities and determination despite difficulties.

I left the kids to plan and come up with ideas of what they wanted to accomplish and I went to do the same for myself. What was next for me? It was time for me to sit and really figure out what I wanted to do next. Then there was Mr. Divine, where we were going in our relationship? It was time to make some choices as well.

Diary of Recovering Idiot is a work of fiction being written in serial format. It tells Lindsay’s story as she grows stronger and wiser.

Bringing in the New Year

“While I sat on the boardwalk awaiting the fireworks to herald in the New Year, I was forced to think about the past few months.”

Yesterday was the final day of the year blogland and what a year it has been. I went from being happily married to being on the way to getting a divorce in just over six months. In some ways I could call this year the most horrible time of my life, yet upon reflection I’m forced to say it’s the best thing that could have happened to me. Some readers must be thinking, its happened folks, she has finally slipped the noose and there is no coming back. But think about it.

If I had continued in my marriage, my husband would have kept right on cheating and I never would have known. Not to mention, I would have never allowed myself to look in the mirror and really see me. The truth was I was ‘toe up from the floor up’ and if possible, on the way to getting worse. To me my life was perfect, but I was wrong. What I just recounted was only the tip of the iceberg when it came to my issues, but there is an old saying, ‘every disappointment is just an appointment for something better’, and when I look back at how things have unfolded maybe this is the case. Maybe I’ve been forced to deal with such a massive change at this point in my life as a preparation for something truly amazing, but only time will tell.

For years I had been blindly committed to a marriage that was slowly destroying my life but I couldn’t see it. At work, I was simply going through the motions and being walked all over by my colleagues. To me this was normal, the way things were supposed to be in my life but this shakeup showed me this wasn’t the case. My life was at a point where it was in major need of an adjustment and thank goodness I have started. I had set change into motion and I was determined to make sure I continued onwards with the plans that were taking place in my mind. I had to make sure I continued to shape my life in the direction I needed it to go. I had no intention of stopping and falling back into the misery that was my old life….

Read the full story of “Diary of a Recovering Idiot”. Coming Soon to Amazon.