Already Missing Her

 

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Shane wanted to be near his sister when she went away to college. Photo by William Stitt on Unsplash

 

I’ve been telling you about Kylie for the past few weeks but what about my darling young man Shane? He did amazing in his exams and as a result got into the school of his choice. He is happy with his results, but I don’t see any eagerness in him to start at this new school. He has been going to the pool with Kylie and much to my surprise had been working with her coach to increase his times and overall stamina. Despite all these things I’ve noticed that my son is quieter than usual.

Every day he talked to Mr. Divine and I saw a joy that took over my son whenever he had one of these conversations. He also seemed to tag along wherever his sister went. I noted that her boyfriend didn’t mind Shane being with them but I still worried about him always being around older kids.

One day when Kylie was out and he seemed to be playing on his iPad I walked by. What I noticed wasn’t a game but rather a website. Slowly I walked up to him. “Shane, what are you doing?”

He put down his iPad and gave me a sad smile.

“Research. I’m looking for schools for kids my age near where Kylie may be going to school.”

His words shocked me but I managed to keep it in. “You found anything good?”

“One or two but it all depends on where Kylie ends up going to university.”

“True, but even if you don’t go to school in the same state you can still visit Kylie often.”

“I guess,” he said with a sigh.

“If you want to go to school near Kylie you can but the school has to be more than just near Kylie. It needs to do the things you are interested in.”

Pouting Shane cuddled against my side. “I’m going to miss her when she is gone mom.”

“Anything is possible so don’t worry. We’ll start looking for proper schools for you so by the end of summer we will have a plan. So let me see these schools you are interested in.

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Recap

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Kylie is happy in her new relationship. Photo by Kevar Whilby on Unsplash

My Kylie was all smiles when we picked her and her young man up at the mall after the movies. They were talking back and forth excitedly about the movie when they tumbled into the jeep filled with unconfined excitement. From there they told us all about what they watched. We took our time driving to Radley’s house to drop him off then we made our way home.

“So tell us more,” I urged Kylie as she sat in the back seat wearing a quiet smile.

“He was very kind and polite mom. He held the door for me…everything. He was a real gentleman.”

“That is good to hear,” said Mr. Divine.

“I watch what you do daddy. If they don’t match you then they are not good enough for me.”

My laughter filled the vehicle when I looked over and saw the look of shock on Mr. Divine’s face at Kylie’s comment.

“Kylie…” his words stopped because he didn’t know what to say.

“I saw how much happier my mom was after she got involved with you. I noted the way you behaved, treated her and I knew this was what a real guy was supposed to be like. So I looked for that type of guy.”

There was a peacefulness in her answer. “So far that is the way Radley is and right now we fit. We’ll take our time and see how things go.”

“That’s always the best way,” said Mr. Divine.

“When I met your mother I knew she was the woman I was going to marry but your mother needed time to get used to me. Never rush, let things come to you and in time things will settle into place.”

“Okay daddy,” said Kylie in a cheerful voice.

My little girl was happy in her new relationship and I was happy for her.

Family Getaway

I’m skipping forward a bit but here is what we got up to on a trip. We spent a few days in Canada just to see if the children might want to consider going there for college. Click the link to see the video of a part of our adventures. Let me know what you think.

Step, Step, Step

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There is always something new around the corner.

Time is flying so fast it is scary. One more day and the month is over…shocking. When I look back at what I…we, have done so far for the year it is reason enough to be truly happy. The martial arts classes are going well. Good fun. Learning how to fall without getting hurt, how to block punches…blows in general. The highlight was when we watched Mr. Divine and his friend fighting to give us a visual of what Krav Maga looks like. It was an epic experience and genuinely beautiful to see. I now understand why Mr. Divine wants us to learn this method of self-defence.

The kids swimming is still going well and Kylie is looking into college overseas. Her swimming has the potential to get her a sports scholarship so we are investigating what schools she might be interested in going to. We’ll spend the next few months trying to find the best fit for her. Some might say why so early but time is flinging by and we have no desire to lose an opportunity due to lack of investigation or not having time to do what needs to be done. Both kids will be moving to new schools in the coming school year so along with sports, they have been catching up with their school work. They are managing their workloads so far and we help whenever needed. We are getting there…yes, we are. Step by step by step.

Settling In

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Things are slowly falling into place.

 

I’m back from my honeymoon but I might as well not be. The buzz is in full control and I’m walking around like I’m a permanent resident of cloud 9. The kids are happy we are back and eager to hear where we went and what we got up to. We gave them an edited version of our trip and they were overjoyed that we got to see so many places in a short timespan.

Now we are back home, we only have two weeks before we plan to leave for a trip as a family. Part of the trip is for us to see Mr. Divine’s house as well as taking Kyle to see some colleges. Then we are going to spend a few days enjoying the theme parks in Florida. It will be a lot of driving and flying but that was going to be all a part of the fun of getting there.

The kids had an amazing time while we were away. They spent their days with friends and family, exploring and relaxing. When we got back home, we had a fun time exchanging stories and sharing pictures. I really had an enjoyable time on that trip. Flying along on the zipline in St. Kitts, jumping off cliff rock and rope swings into breathtaking lagoons of water in more than one beautiful port. Mr. Divine truly indulged mt inner water baby.

Now we are married, Mr. Divine was officially moving into my house. we decided it was easier for one of him to move rather than three of us. We also took into account that the location of my house made it easier for all of us to get to and from work and play easier. The plan was to put his house up for rent with one of the island’s real estate agents that would also maintain and look after the property. If we left the country as a family, that was also the plan air-marked for my house. I have learnt that passive income and making my money work for me is key to building wealth.

I had thought it would be difficult to get used to Mr. Divine always being there, but if I really thought about it, he was by our house more often than not. I had gotten used to more help in the kitchen and around the house. My daughter would smile her little happy smile whenever Mr. Divine did anything sweet and loving, making me know that her opinion of men had not been warped by her father’s horrible, inexcusable actions. My children now had a role model who could help to shape their opinions of right and wrong.

Another thing I noted was that Mr. Divine Didn’t have an excessive amount of clothes and what he did have was high-end of exceptional quality. I questioned him one day to understand the reason for his choices. He explained he discovered when he bought cheaper, for example, shirts. He discovered he had to buy new shirts sooner due to wear and tear. When he bought a little more expensive, they lasted longer. He explained that over time he learned how to buy expensive for less, so now he had the best of both worlds. I was discovering and learning new tricks every day.

When Mr. Divine moved in with us we also decided to do a thorough cleaning of the house. Everything that belonged to Walter that was still in the house we packed in bags and boxes, called the police officers we dealt with in the past, plus our lawyer and his lawyer and made sure the fact I was giving him back what was his, was documented. I even sent him the old lawn mower he bought years ago that stopped working. Any gift he bought me/the house I got rid of too.

In fact, I wanted to get rid of every item of furniture or thing that reminded me of our marriage. It was like some delayed reaction where I just wanted to purge him fully from my life. Mr. Divine and the kids had to calm me down. I had planned of remodeling but they had drifted into the background when other things took a more important place in my life.

“If we are going to renovate then it;s going to have to be well thought out,” said Mr. Divine hugging me close and rubbing my back.

I took a deep breath and tried to calm myself while I considered what Mr. Divine was saying. recently any thought of Walter would just bring the anger boiling up in me and this was no different. In the past, I had gotten to a place where I didn’t even think about Walter or I wasn’t bothered if I heard about him but that had changed because of the recent incidents I’ve had to deal with involving him. I had to work once more at extinguishing him from my life.

“How about we pull out the old ideas we were working on for the house. Have a serious look at them. Look at the other plans we have in play for our lives and make some decisions from there,” I said.

The kids nodded and I relaxed into the couch as they went towards their rooms to plan. The house was just a tiny part of a huge picture and we would look at everything before a decision was made. Sometimes good comes from a supposedly bad situation but it was a matter of finding the good of the situation and working with it. That’s what I’ll do. Re-adjust my attitude and go after what I wanted because that was life.

Kicking Butt

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Martial Arts class is so much fun.

 

Martial Arts class is looking to be a truly exciting and I’m looking forward to my next class to see what I’ll be taught. Kylie came home almost bursting with excitement when she found out the guy would be teaching us, Krav Maga. She is hooked on NCIS at the moment and is in awe of Ziva, so to learn to fight like her would be like double icing on a cake.

I’ve also been watching Shane to making sure he is going okay. He is growing so big, getting so mature. I glad Mr. Divine is there to show him how to be a strong man of integrity, yet remind him of the joys of a boy. I’m so happy there is now a ‘strong’ male figure in his life that he can look up to who makes sure he knows more than just right from wrong but can analyse and discover the truth of situations. My babies are growing up.

Slipping Away

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Happy with the man I love.

When dinner at the hotel restaurant finished on the evening of my wedding, my now husband stood up and held his hand out to me. He wanted us to have our first dance together as a couple and I so did I. While we ate, music was playing in the restaurant and it seems that when he sent a signal to someone, the song he wanted started to play.

“May I have this dance Mrs……” Let’s call me Mrs. Divine. Lol. It was amazing and I was content in the arms of a man who love me as much as I loved him.

When everything was over, I found myself being handed into the plush seats of a taxi. It was on of the newest models of Range Rover and the trip was like floating on a cloud. Mr. Divine cuddled me against his chest and I closed my eyes, too happy to care where I was going.

I didn’t realise how tired I was but suddenly I felt myself being lifted. I came awake fully to find myself being laid on a plush comforter. I didn’t have a clue where I was but in truth, I wasn’t worried. I was content. Turning over I looked up at Mr. Divine and found him laying on his elbow looking down at me.

“Hello my love,” he whispered to me before he leaned over and pressed his lips against mine. With a sigh of pleasure, I reached for him and cuddled against his body.

“Hello,” I whispered back to him and closed my eyes as I rested my head against his chest. “Did I tell you what an amazing man you are and that I’m truly happy to be your wife?”

I got another kiss for my question. “The fact you walked down the aisle is an indication of your love. The fact that I have gained you trust and your love, humbles me.”

Pushing him down onto the bed I snuggled against him. I had never been so happy in my life. “You worked for and gained every bit of that thrust yo now have.”

I held him tight for several minutes then slipped out of the bed and he turned over and watched my every move. I stood in the mirror and watched him watching me as I started to take down my hair. When it fell down my back I watched him smile.

Twisting my hair I dropped it over one shoulder and Mr. Divine got up and came to me. I watched as he traced the buttons of my dress all the way down to the bottom of my spine.

“Were all these buttons on this dress designed to torture me?

He reached up and started to unbutton them one after the other.

“No,” I said with a laugh. “Would I do that?”

He laughed with me as he continued his task then gasped as he pushed the dress off of my shoulders.

“Ahhhhh, so this is what you were hiding under your dress.”

While Mr. Divine helped I stepped out of the dress and he got to see my ensemble of a cream lace corset with daring lace pushup and scandalous underwear. I had decided to abandon the suspender belt and stockings because the wedding ceremony was on the beach.

“I bought it especially for you. Do you like it?”

Slowly he traced his fingers along one to the ribs of the corset before he paused, just under my breast and gave me a teasing smile.

“I think like is to mild a word to describe my emotions.”

Taking my hand, he pulled me towards the divan at the foot of the bed and settled me in his lap. He took up a flat rectangular box from next to him and placed it on his lap. It had been right there on the divan all along but I had been oblivious.

I look at him and tried to get a hint of what it was about all I got was a smile.

“Open it,” he whispered against my neck as he trailed his nose over my skin.

I cuddled closer to him as I opened the box. My jaw dropped at what I discovered. It was a scandalously tiny bikini with a card to go with it.

I open the card slowly.  After I read it I looked up at him even more shocked.

“Two weeks?”

“Correct,” he whispered against my lips.

“You and I on a privet yacht and all you need is this sexy bit of red string and may be a few other things. I have everything you need waiting for you.

“Yes,” I sighed against his lips. “Always yes.”

I yield to his perfect touch, and for the rest of the night and into the early hours of the morning I fell under the spell of his unrelenting pleasure. Come morning, I didn’t have the energy or inclination to move, but I didn’t need to. My breakfast was brought to me I was awoken by the type of pleasure any woman wants a lifetime of.

After I checked in on the kids and told them goodbye, that naughty man insisted on dressing me in that tiny combination of string and a coverup. When I say dressed I mean was dressed. That man was intent on keeping me aware of his touch.

Mr. Divine went as far as blindfolding me and leading me to the boat. When he slipped off the silk scarf I couldn’t speak.

“It’s…It’s so amazing.” I spun around and jumped into his arms. Like always he caught me.

“Anything and I mean anything, to make you happy.”

Like he said, he had everything I needed there and we sailed away two hours after I boarded. I have never been so pampered in my life and I loved the amazing islands we visited.

The tiny red bikini was one of several and naughty as they were, I enjoyed wearing them. There was a privet deck that was outside our stateroom and that was where Mr. Divine encouraged me to explore and be adventurous.  That naughty man actually got me to sunbath nude and one night we even went skinny dipping we had a wild amazing time together and I’m truly happy that I married this amazing me.

Off the Rails

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Walter ended up before the judge…again.

There is a bit more to the story about when Walter started getting on stupid when he found out that Mr. Divine had proposed to me. Yes, he was livid when I told him that Walter has called and started berating me about my decision to get married again. The anger shifted to livid when we were at home having a games night with the kids and Walter had the audacity to turn up at my house. On boy. 

We were so engrossed in the game we didn’t even know someone was outside of the house. It was only when a loud banging started to shake the front door that let us know someone was there. Mr. Divine gave me a look and we moved cautiously to the door. The kids went to the small windows next to the door to look outside and my daughter looked back at me wide-eyed.

“I know you are in there Lindsay you bitch. You must be out of your mind if you think you can just leave me and get married. I say what you can do.”

The kids looked at me in confusion. Anger filled my daughter’s face and she moved towards the telephone and started to make a call. A crash of broken glass resounded.

Mr. Divine opened the door to see Walter with a rock in his hand about to throw it through the side window of his jeep. The crash we had heard before was a rock going through the windscreen of the jeep and when Walter saw that the door was open he rushed at us, rock in hand. Walter came at us screaming threats and for once what he said just washed over me. I was more concerned about the danger he potentially posed to all of us.

Walter threw the rock and we all ducked. It broke the window next to the door and I heard a shout of shock. I looked back to make sure the kids were alright but I was also trying to keep an eye on Mr. Divine. I didn’t know what was going on with Walter because as nasty as I had seen him behave, I had never known him to become violent. I watched the rage flowing off of Walter and I shouted for Mr. Divine to be careful.

Then to my shock, Mr. Divine stood there was Walter came at him cursing and yell and took a punch to the face. I cried out in shock but Mr. Divine calmly told me to stay back. What then unfolded was like something out of a movie. Mr. Divine leaped into the air and came down delivering a punch that knocked Walter out cold. When Walter crumpled onto the ground  Mr. Divine turned and walked up to me and pulled me into his arms for a mind sapping kiss. He reached for the kids and hugged them as well.

I was still in Mr. Divine arms when a police car pulled up. One of them moved to Walter who was still unconscious on the ground and the other came cautiously to us.

“Good night, madam, sir. We got a call about a domestic disturbance.  What is going on?”

My daughter came forward and stood in front of us. “I called you. My father just turned up here and started cursing, yelling and breaking things. He threw a rock at us and broke the window and he hit my mother’s fianceé.”

“Young lady let me speak to the adults.”

Mr. Divine turned and looked at the officer and took my hand and started to move towards the house.

“Sir. Madam. What happened here?”

Mr. Divine pointed to Kyle. “The young lady called you. She can tell you what happened. After you take her statement then you can question me. I’m going inside to get some ice and call my lawyer.”

On the ground, Walter finally started to regain consciousness. One of the officers went to him while the other called for an ambulance. A few minutes later the officer came to the door and cleared his throat. The kids looked at Mr. Divine and when he finally acknowledged the officer he pointed to the children.

“Like I said before, take their statement first then we’ll talk.”

The officer still hesitated and Mr. Divine got up. “Since you don’t want to take the kids statement. You can wait until my lawyer gets here. Then you can take everyone’s statement.”

The officer was not pleased by this change of events but that is how thing went from there on. The lawyer came forty-five minutes later and by then the officers had gotten the statement from our neighbors and an irate Walter who the ambulance had dealt with or left. He was now sitting down in the back of the police car waiting.

When the lawyer came, he insisted on talking to us first and we told him what happened. After we were done, he called in the officer.

“So what happened here?”

The lawyer pointed to the kids.

“We were all inside playing  Cashflow. I was winning and we were having fun when suddenly there was a loud banging on the door. Then we heard someone screaming and after we got up and moved towards the door I realized it was my father.”

“He was screaming nasty things about my mother. Nasty things about the fact mom was getting remarried. That was when I went to get the phone to call the police while I watched what was going on through the window.

Before I got back to the window to look out there was a crash. When I got the window mom’s fiancé was standing outside the door. It seems our dad had thrown a rock through the window of his jeep. He has another rock in his hand. When he saw mom’s fiancé at the door he rushed at him and threw the rock. We all ducked and the rock broke the window.” Kyla pointed to the broken window and the rock on the floor.

“He rushed at mom’s fiancé and punched him. Mom’s fiancé punched him back. It knocked him right out. You found him where he fell.”

Has anything like this happened before?”

“There was one incident at my workplace,” I said. “The police was called it was brought to the courts. He has been getting progressively…problematic. We have also been having problems with him and the children. It’s been getting very difficult.”

The officer closed his notebook and tapped the cover with his pen.

“Madam, how long have you left your husband?”

I sat up and looked the officer in the eye. “You need to get it right. He left me. Walked out and left me, us for another woman. Told me he had filed for a divorce. He left me more than two to three years ago. He made me miserable all during my marriage and has been trying to do the same thing since the divorce was made final months ago.”

“Okay madam. We will be taking your ex down to the station and charging him with assault and damage to property.”

“I’m sure we can find a few more things to charge him with,” said the lawyer. “He has become a constant problem for my clients. We will be coming to the station in the morning to give an official statement.”

The officer nodded and the lawyer went with him to the door. When he came back he sat down and discussed our options. Charges had to be laid or Walter would continue to be a problem. I didn’t want things to come to this point but I need to go on with my life.

We ended up at the station and in court the next day. Our lawyer was swinging a heavy bat and when we walked out Walter had been charged and faced possible jail time. The fact that he had an incident before would mean this time he would be going to jail for sure. He also had to stay away from us. Time would reveal the outcome but no matter what my children and I were getting on with our lives.

The Spoke for my Wheel

 

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We wanted to go on vacation as a family.

So I go the jitters. The pre-wedding freak out because I’m asking myself if I’m doing the right thing. I know what I endured during my last marriage and this is what tries to take over my mind and often makes me so afraid to take this important step in my life. Again the fear is trying to stalk me but I know I don’t want to live in that place for the rest of my life.

How did I end up feeling like this? It came about as a result of the complications that came into play due to my evil, spawn of the devil, ex, called Walter. Everything was planned for the wedding and I had even gotten my dress after much deliberation What happened while I got the dress is another story for you to look forward to but for now let me tell you what the idiot did.

The plan for the kids and I was to do some traveling with Mr. Divine and to visit his home to get the…feel for what the area is like. The aim to figure out if it was a place we would consider moving me. The complication, I needed Walter’s permission to take the children out of the country and we were not on speaking terms due to how he behaved when he heard I was getting married. Add to it that, Mr. Divine had insisted on sending Walter a letter from my lawyer to cease and desist his harassment I don’t know how I was going to get his permission to take the children with me.
The whole thing has me worried because there was no way I was leaving my children with that man knowing that he and they were not on the best terms. I had to figure out what to do.

When I contacted my lawyer about the situation, after speaking at length we decided it was best to speak to the judge. Several months back the kids came to the decision they wanted nothing to do with their father and I mean nothing. It all came to a head in the office in the office of the school counselor in front of the principal of both children’s schools. The incident then went to a judge who wanted to insist that the children had to have visitation with their father. The adults said what they had to say then the judge said he was going to make his ruling. That was when my daughter stood up and asked about what she had to say.

“You want to send us to stay with that man.”

“Young lady you are in contempt, you need to be quiet. The adults make the decisions.”

“Yes while the children have to suffer the pain of your bad decisions. I dare you. Send me to that man and in less than a day he will be begging you to change the ruling. I will torment him worst than he tormented us. I promise I will.”

Kylie shot her father a nasty look then looked to the judge.

“I. Dare. You.”

The courtroom was dead silent that day and the judge saw that my daughter was not joking and made the decision not to make visitation necessary. Now I had to go to the same judge about the trip. There was no way we were going to tell this man we were thinking about a permanent move. We would deal with that bridge if we were ever going in that direction, till then it’s about the trip.

When we went to the judge he sighed when he saw us. My daughter also insisted on coming. She wanted to hear every decision that would affect her.

I can hear a lot of other adults saying, “that child needs to know his place’, but think about it. How many times have adults made decisions they don’t talk to children about and it destroys the child’s life? At sixteen, Kylie had the right to know what is happening to her. Unlike a lot of people, I talk to my children. Their opinions actually count.

This time the judge insisted on an aside and spoke to Kylie. They spoke back and forth for more than thirty minutes then the judge came back to the rest of us. He got the paperwork from the lawyer and looked it over.

“Mr. Haynes your children have planned a vacation with their mother and her new husband and I’m granting them permission to go on the trip.”

“Why is it she always getting what she wants and I always get punished?”

The judge turned to Walter. “This is about your children’s lives not winning. I was willing to give you a chance but from what your daughter says you have made no effort.”

“Her mother made her…”

“Your daughter is not stupid and can think for herself and I frankly think that if you were a good father it wouldn’t matter what her mother said about you if you were a good father. You are not the father these children need so until you start exhibiting that you are, it is best that the children stay with their children mother and her new husband.”

The reprimand had Walter fuming but the judge’s word was final. We would be going on vacation and maybe more. In the end, the decision that was made ended up being the best interest of the children, the persons who mattered most in this whole situation.

Plans

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Maybe I’ll get something like this for my bouquet.

The thought of dealing with the planning of a wedding makes me cringe and I think Mr. Divine picked that up when after he asked me one day I put my head under a pillow and screamed in frustration. With a laugh, he pulled me out of hiding and into his arms and asked me what was the problem. I explained that I was over the making called and all things the needed to be done to get things arranged.

That was when that precious man suggested the most amazing thing. We would choose a hotel and let their wedding planner do everything else. All we need to do was choose a hotel, a date for the wedding, colours and flower types. The numbers of my guest also my attendants then that was it other than clothing. I looked at him wide-eyed.

“So when do you want to get married?” he whispered against my lips. “Morning, afternoon or evening.” Each question came with a kiss and over the next two hours we had everything planned. All we needed was dresses, tuxes and to choose a hotel.

We ended up picking the hotel where we met as the location where to hold the wedding. My sister, Florence that saved me from my downwards spiral and my daughter would be my attendants, but we were yet to decide who would give me away. We decided on thirty guests made up of immediate family and extra close friends who would be at the wedding and join us for a quiet. This would happen after an evening ceremony on the beach.

For flowers, I decided to go for tropical colours and flowers done in a simple hand-tie bouquet with orchids, torch gingers, shampoo gingers and other strong tropical flowers. Buttonholes and anything else could be done in orchids. With all the things I considered different sorted out, all I had to do was back in being in love. Then there was to find my dress and everything was sorted.

So location, check. Food and guests, check. Now it’s to get the little matter of getting the dresses and I will be getting married. I have sorted what I was sure is the hard part, but I think things will get more interesting before I get to walk down the aisle.